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It took a while, but when I was finally able to talk with the leader of the group, I was accepted in. He was to be my master; to awaken, and then teach me. He had a specific process of awakening, which he tought me, and said he'd perform on me during my sleep. He told me about things like shield "programming"/shield breaking and dream-weaving. I honestly believed I had a lot to learn from him. However there were very few things he ever actually tought me. Most times he would introduce a concept, and expect me to "remember" it from a past life. The only thing he actually instructed me on, was how to awaken somone.

We (as a group) were supposed to meet in our dreams through "dream-weaving" that another member would perform. This never actually happened though. They (the weaver and the group leader) both said it did, but then ended up having two completely different stories about what happened in the dream, and I couldn't recall anything like either of them. I talked to the girl I met at churchcamp, and she explained that the exact same thing happened last summer. After some collaboration between us, we were able to catch our "leader" at his numerous lies. It was obvious that I was not the first in the group to have these experiences with him, and I probably wouldn't be the last.

He was a pretender, who had learned/heard about some accurate techniques somewhere, and he decided "this group buisiness aint so tuff, and it otta be fun". Well he was wrong, and I leaft. He tought me one thing that I use to this day... but he was the reason I tried/learned some of what I know today, which amounted to more than just awakening someone. Regaurdless of how much I resent the deceit and pretense, I will always be greatfull for that, and the experience to be much less naieve. Thank you Gio.

For a year I practiced my powers, and along the way gained new ones. I eventually discovered that my empathy extended to feeling other peoples' emotions as well as thier physical feelings. I came to understand that my healing was not a relief or manipulation of somone's pain, but an output of a beneficial energy that counteracted the pain. I gained hieghtened sences, and discovered new ones. I manipulated energies and shieldings.

It was finally summer time, and time for churchcamp again. I loved Churchcamp, and to some degree still do. But it is not what it once was, and I refuse to attend just to watch it die... So I don't still go there. But it was wonderfull, enlightening, and fun. Each time you attend this paticular camp, you sleep in cabins (usually a different cabin with different people than the year before). There is a group of cabins for each gender, and another for the camp staff. You actually had very little time to spend in the cabin with all the events, activities, and hikes.

There was a 3 hour long period of time each day called free time where various activities all over camp were open. By about the second or third day I had made plenty of friends, and was interested in the crafting activites, so there I went during free time.

I met a beautifull girl there. She was crafting a lanyard. So she and I talked a bit. Somewhere along the line we talked of favourite colours, and she asked if I could guess what three were her favourite. "Let me see..." I said, "Pink, Yellow, and Green?" "How did you know?" "I'm psychic." I said, mostly jokingly. "Oh, I am too." She said, and that imediately cought my attention. She asked me if I could guess what her favourite animal was, and I did on my first try. It turned out that she was Kin! She even had a group lead by her cousin who was supposed to specialize in shielding. A year alone and I finally found somone like me. We talked the rest of our free time away, just the two of us.

I was excited and happy. Not long after, I told my cabin (the other people in it, including our cabin counciler) that I was a Vampyr, and what I could do. They all had pretty much the same reaction: one of skepticism. So they did verious tests on my hearing and to what I reacted and how. One night, our cabin decided to have a secret friendly boxing competition with another cabin just for fun. Our counciler fought their's. Our counciler lost. His arm was left in pain after that. So he and I talked alone outside of our cabin. I offered to heal him if he trusted me. He said he did, so I tried, and it worked. If he'd doubted the truth of what I had told them before then, he certainly didn't after.

The Maiden and I talked before camp ended, and we were on our way to a great (yet sadly short-lived) friendship. I was to meet the leader of their group, and if aproved of by their leader, be inducted into their group. I had hoped to learn a lot, and become much more powerfull. I had no idea what I'd actually come learn...

Well, it didn't take long of me practicing magic before I started needing to feed. I felt tired, but not physically or mentally. I didn't want to sleep, I just wanted the energy back. I was draining myself, and I needed to restore it.

So I pulled. I just pulled. From somewhere inside of me I pulled in energy from all around me. I mostly drank from my house, in my livingroom... at first. Then I talked to my Mom and her partner over the phone (but mostly my Mom). I explained to her what I was doing, and I was astonished at the response I got.

My Mom's partner (not my Mom) said "We understand. We don't think you're crazy." I didn't think I was crazy either, but I did want to know why they didn't think I was crazy, and why my Mom's partner was saying this.

My Mom asked what I thought of Witches, Werewolves, and Vampires. I wasn't sure what she'd say next, but she's smart and obviously knew something. Now I trusted her, but I thought it wise to cover my bases. In response, I said something to the effect of, "I know about Witches, but you mean overgrown fur-balls and creepers that just never go out in the sun?" "No", my Mom said "I'm talking about real Werewolves and Vampires." The conversation became very serious after that, as she informed me about the real world, about how I was something called a... Strigoi, and about her experiences as a Vampiric Master, and leader In her small town of Hanford California.

This is my first entry. I'm not sure what to put in my journal... So I guess I'll put little summeries of my supernatural experiences for now. The first power I fully recognized as a power was physical empathy (quickly followed by the ability to heal). I could feel a person's physical pain/stress as well as pressure/forces acting upon the environment around me. Long before this, I had been manipulating/creating shields, but I had no understanding of this. I figured... it was just my imagination. I had no idea what was going on. Well, I had an idea, but it was mostly wrong.



I discovered my physical empathy and healing at Churchcamp, but it wasn't untill much later that I found out what was really happening.